January 2011
day four: a secret..
a secret…mhhh. i have a lot of secrets. not many are really worth telling people.
well i guess my secret is that i’m not as put together as i look. my life isn’t as good as it seems, i’m not happy, and i haven’t been for almost a year. there’s way more to it than this but i don’t talk about it and i’m not going to choose tumblr to let it out…
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christina
chrstina and i were chillen in her room today before work. i was laying on her bed eating pudding and she was changing. we were talking about her going to school and what i would do. i just looked at her and said, this. i’m just gonna chill in your room all the time. maybe watch some movies and cuddle up in your bed. she thought it was great. the sad part is this is so true. the day she...
day four: an insiration..
my insiration for everything is my grandmother and wayne clark.
i do everything in life with these two people in mind. all i want is for them to see me now and be proud of me. that’s what i hope happens with every choice i make.
i love you<3
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frustration
everything you do makes me sooo mad. you make me want to hit you so much! you are so indecisive, it kills me. one day you want something and the next you don’t. you talk to me for a week and then nothing for days..why? i don’t understand you, i really don’t. you can’t treat me like that and expect everything to be peachy. what the fuck. all i want is for you to tell me what...
day two: a goal..
recently my goal has to been to be happy. i think i’m starting out too big. i don’t think i’ll be happy anytime soon. so my new goal is goign to be a smaller goal that will lead up to my goal of being happy. my new goal is to trust.
trust people. trust myself. trust anything and everything. i have trust issues, major ones. but as of right now i am going to do whatever i can to...
day one: a memory..
March 3, 2010.
this was the day i went to get my lovely back brace. i didn’t go to school that day and spent the day in boston with my mom. we walked around for a little while, got breakfast, and then went to my doctor to get the brace. once we got it we walked from his office to north station so we could go home. i am terrified of trains so i was freaking out the whole time. i got of the...
have you ever?
felt like you’re not good enough? and no matter how hard you try you can’t make that one person happy? i feel like that right now. i try as hard as i can to do whatever i can to make you happy and you still don’t take that. you keep asking for more, and i just can’t fucking do it. i can’t do anymore than what i’m already doing. everything i’m doing is...
sissssy!
happpppy biirthday biigsisssy<3 :D i love youu<3
midterms
SUCK! i’m done with you.
happy
being happy is easy to fake. half of the people you see that look happy really aren’t. being happy takes time and chances. if you get the chance to be happy you should take it because the longer you can really be happy the better. you can only fake it for so long before you just break down.
“let’s be real.”
– ashley davis.
“i miss everything about you can’t believe that I still want you and after...”
– colbie caillet
gone
you were my best friend for years. we told eachother everything. we started drifting apart and now we barely know eachother. if someone asked me something about you two years ago i could tell them everything, anything. if they wanted to know about you i could tell them. now someone asks me something about you and i’m clueless. i don’t know you at all. sometimes i find myself thinking...
